I’m not going to pretend this is normal or okay because it’s not. Cousins are family and sleeping with family members is incest, which is illegal in a lot of places and comes with a lot of problems. Like, what happens when they find out about each other? What happens at family reunions? This is a mess waiting to explode.
You need to stop what you’re doing right now. Not tomorrow, not after one more time, right now. The longer this goes on, the worse the fallout is going to be when it all comes out. And it will come out. Secrets like this don’t stay buried forever, especially in families where people talk.
You also need to think about why you’re doing this. Is it the thrill of something forbidden? Are you using sex to fill some emotional hole? Are you just bored? Whatever the reason, it’s not worth destroying your family over. There are plenty of people in the world you can sleep with who aren’t related to you.
If you need help figuring out why you keep making destructive choices, talk to a therapist. Seriously. This isn’t just about sex, it’s about something deeper that you need to work through before you do something that can’t be undone. Please stop and get help.